She's bewildered.. She's scared.. She's confused.
She just had a crazy weekend. A weekend that she will remember for life.
She questioned herself repeatedly every time she blanks out.
What happened? Curiosity kills again.
It was her very first time she got hungover. She was always careful not to go overboard especially in outstation but this time she trusted her friend would take care of her and because she's in her own city. She let it slight off. The friend she trusted did actually took care of her ya but mostly her bag and then left her with a new friend she just make which is going to fly to Amsterdam with her on Monday =.= i know right? Oh well guess what?
Her boldness and spontaneous act had some kind caused her spiritually and emotionally.
Sorta left clueless bout last night. It's haunting. The only way to stop this is to ask. The thing that stop her from asking was because she's embarrassed to bring up the event again.
She's basically lost. Barely even remember what's her true self. Does she even know the true self of her?
I doubt so. The fact that she's been push to adapt to her surroundings is insane!
There's two sides of her she's indecisive about herself but yet apart of her knows that's her true self.
Well as I what i know, she's just a young girl who had to moved out from her family and friends to a bigger city with only a thousand dollar to survived. She dint have a choice. She had to do whatever it takes to save money for the future. While all her colleagues leads a luxurious life, she's there tying herself down. Every time she scroll through pictures of her friends eating expensive food, buying branded stuffs and pampering themselves she feels so disheartened. A colleague of hers once told her, why suffer so much to save money? You should be easy on yourself. Money wont buy you happiness.
Just enjoy while your young because tomorrow will always be a mystery. If only she have this way of thinking not to worry bout the future.
She wants to prove to people she's independent.She hates it when people thinks she's still young and thinks she doesn't know much. Yes! Young but so what? People around her are all twice her age. It's quite a challenge to try to fit in and keep the conversation going. Most people would just ignore and keep themself quiet but she doesn't rock this way. She wants to let them know she's different. Doesn't mean she's young she cant seem to click to well. Her strong will pushes her so hard that she had to step out of her comfort zone.She make sure she tries anything that is new to her ,make lots of new friends and hangout with them because she honestly think that this is the way of keeping her strong and mature. Meeting new people teaches her so many stuffs. And the results are? Her friends would even ask her out to meet their friends. Which means they doesn't mind bout her age at all. Bare this in mind, time to time she's tends to be afraid and a little pulled back because people would reject to hangout with her because of her age.
What do you think? Do you think she should still push herself to step out of comfort zone or just be conservative? Please do help her and give her some words of advice because I'm speechless and confused too.Is there anyone out there is proud of her too? All I know is that I'm really proud of her. Proud on how she could adapt to changes every single new day. How she could keep herself so strong facing this big scary world alone. God of Angel Armies please always be by her side.
