Monday 25 August 2014

One night to lose your mind

CURIOSITY KILLS THE CAT. True or false?
Courage was all gathered and build up.
The waiting has finally come to an end.
That dying desire was desired.
Lesson and experience gained.
Addiction is stirred up.
How can we stop this?
I finally clubbed last Saturday night.

It was a night I will never forget. I finally understood why people likes to club.
One word i would like to say about clubbing. Carefree.
The feeling of happiness. Forget about all the worries and stress.
You drowned yourself with alcohol as if they were your medicine to all your problems.
Smoke as if the puff is your stress and it would just disappear in thin air.
You dance like there's no tomorrow and as if you are young and carefree again.
Meeting strangers which then became your new friends.

In the other hand,
What you don't know was we are all just too sober and drunk.
Toxicating our kidneys.
Stuffing our lungs with cigarette smoke.
Being touched and grabbed by hands from nowhere. I can never forget how I was grabbed.
Grinding with strangers which turns them on.
Inhibitions were gone.
And we all live by the motto we only live once so lets party like there's no tomorrow.









Friday 22 August 2014

I will be grateful for this day

I just got back from a meet up with a close friend of mine whom i knew since we're 10 years old. She said something that really make me stop and wonder for awhile. Something so great that it makes me realise and remind myself to be grateful. So what did she said?
She was telling me how lucky I am to have my life so well planned and everything seems so smooth looking and that she is jealous of me. In the other hand , her life wasn't just that lucky as mine based on what she thinks. Just to let you know, me and her plus another friend of mine shared the same dream to become an air hostess together since we were 12. But sadly, only one of us make it to this dream. 

So I was saying that yea, she really reminded me that I should be very grateful for what I have because someone else is praying for the things you take for granted. I should really stop complaining and look at the bright side again. How many times have I forgot to look on the bright side? Sigh.
She even mentioned something really makes me feel proud. Sort of the achievement feeling or maybe something you've been longing or dream for a very long time. She said that I have grown so much. I have grown to be such a mature and strong girl. No more naive Jayne. Listening to this totally makes me feel that this path I'm taking is really the right path to walk. More like God's path all set ready for me. Thou it may seem so smooth to peoples eyes  but honestly I went through hell which in the end with God by my side I managed to sail it smoothly.  My life is a gift but I just got to wake up everyday and realize that.

Dear readers, do not be easily deceived  by pictures of happiness of others because everyone has their rough times. Don't just see on the bright side, we all have our bad sides too.Just that we don't show it. 

Before I end my this post, it may seem like ahh anyone could just tell you that their proud of you too and shit.But this is different. This words is from my friend. An honest and straight forward friend who watches you grow. Who would daringly pick on your taste especially on your boyfriends. A friend that wish to have my life too. Her words really mean well that's why it really impacted me.Whatever it is , I wish she could pursue her dreams as soon as possible.
Well said quote.