Does age really matter?

Here's a question. Why care so much bout age? I know to most women out there the topic about age is the most sensitive issue. I totally agree with it. Why?
Well, because I entered the working world early at the age of 18. Yes I'm the most youngest . It's good to start at a very young age but reality? It's kinda sucks.Almost everyday I work with people with different age and continents. Most of them can be my sister, brother, father, mother or grandpa.
It's really hard and unfair to me. Unfair in what sense?

Working 
When I was P plate for my first and second month, my colleagues tend to pick on me more because I'm way younger than them moreover I'm very new to flying and I got super good roster.Jealous much? I always hope and pray hard that they do not know my age every time I go for flight. I really hate it when they know my age. They will go all like please stand aside don't join us. I'm too young for them and all. But thank God after I cleared my P, everything seems better.
I feel really great and proud of myself when some of the colleagues told me they salute me because I'm so mature and could deal with all the kind of shit on board at such age. They couldnt tell Im 18/19 and thought I was 23/24. Do i even look that old? -.-

I will never find love till i reach my 20's
I really hate it when at first guys flirts with you, keep trying on you then some bitch come tell them my age. Then the guys be like choking themselves with some unbelievable truth then ignore me after that. I was like jerks.. This happens alot of time. I'm glad a few of my guy colleagues i flew with dint think or act that way and they are still my friends till now.

Appearance and maturity?
Do you prefer to look mature when your not even your 20's?
Seriously I have lots of friends who looks, makeup and dress themselves like their 25 when their only 16? 17? 18? Like seriously? I mean its good to be mature but that's too over
In the other hand, those ladies I know who were already in their mid's of 20's wishing and trying so hard to look young. Why the irony?
Why cant us girl's just act and be like what's right for their age.

I actually don't know what I'm trying to express. I'm just really pissed of ageism. Should I wish to be in my 20's faster or what. Sometimes I just want to have fun and act like a child. I honestly never really had my chance to have fun when I was younger. And now even worse I have to be all working adult, no spoilt reputation of myself and shits.

BIRTHDAY WISHES

29 more days till my birthday.

I wonder what should I reward myself. I never really thought of it yet thou. I believe this year my birthday is going to be super pathetic because my friends are flying and my family is at hometown so yea there's no one to celebrate my birthday with.I remember when I was young I would get really upset and depressed if I never get to celebrate my birthday or there's no one to celebrate with. I guess I will just go to the shopping mall on my birthday off day alone and pamper the shit out of  myself.

1) A guitar

2) The Impossible Prada Wallet That I Wont Get Till A Few More Years

3) Get Myself A Few New Pairs of Clothes. Denim Jackets for Instance

4) Ankle High Flat Boots


5) Michael Kors Selma Messenger Sling Bag

Oh well, that's the top 5 things I wish I could get for myself. Just to let you know I don't think I will get myself the Prada wallet and Michael Kor bag because I think I should save the money first. That's all I could think of at this moment for my birthday list. Chaos..

Why did i chose this path

All my life I wanted to be an air hostess. Many people thinks its a glamourous job while many thinks is a bad job as there's a lot of scandals going on or its dangerous (air crash etc). People should  really be clear about this few statements about flying. It's time to face reality people!  Scandals? Oh please! Don't tell me a job as a lawyer, doctor, accountant,  or teacher do not happen any scandal at all. Seriously bullshit to those who thinks scandals only happens between pilot and airhostess. Dangerous? Are you blind or what? Tell me how often does plane crash happen. I seriously heard and saw more car accidents than planes. This statement has been stuck in my head for a long time and I will never forget it. It is much more safer to be on air than on ground. 

There's a lot of reasons why I wanted to be an airhostess.

1) I love travelling

2) I earn more money than those fresh graduates

3) I want to be more successful than my friends

4) I could spend my own hard earned money not depending on my parents

5) I always want to be independent and leave house

6) I believe I do not have money to go college( do not know what course to take either & I suck at studying)

7) I believe I could save a lot of money to own a house

8) Help my family financially and give them a good life

9) I strongly believe this is my road path God set for me

10) I want to prove people wrong that I am not useless and dreams do happen as long as you keep believing in it.

The list will go on and on..

 So yea, after so many year of determination that I will be an airhostess. My dream finally came true. I finished my SPM, got a good results that nobody thought I could score it and on the same day I got my results, I passed my SIA interview. One of top airline in the world. Just to remind you guys, dreams do come true if you keep believing and praying to God. Knowing that God will bless and make it come true for you its the most amazing miracle thing ever.  Eventhough your dreams came true its not the end of victory but a start of a new war. You have to know that even if God make your dreams come true doesn't mean it will be a smooth ride through.( Its like you have to pay for your prize) He will put us through storm in order to cleanse us through it. On my next post, I will tell you all my hardships I had to face eventhough my dream to be an airhostess had came true

What I want in him

It doesn't really interest me what he does for a living, I want to know what he aches for.
It doesn't interest me how old he is, I want to know if he is willing to risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive. I want to know if he can live with failure, his and mine.
It doesn't interest me where he live and how rich he is, I want to know if he can get up after a night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and be sweet to the ones he love. I want to know if he can be alone with himself and truly  like the company he keep in the empty moments of his life.
I want to be someone that makes an effort to be with me.Not with someone who only remembers me when they realize they ran out of options. To be everything he dint know he were looking for.
I wonder when will i find that guy who will pursue me, the one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical, the kind of guy who brings out the best in me and makes me to be a better person. Waiting for that guy who will be my best friend, the only guy who will drop everything to be with me at any time no matter what the circumstances. Im automatically more attracted to guys who can make me laugh.  Honestly think it's the thing i like the most is to laugh.It cures  multitude of ills. It's probably the most important thing in a person.